Afraid To Love???

So, I came upon something I wrote Back in June and it's kind of reflecting how I'm feeling right about now. Plus me and my friend was having a multi-topic conversation at the bus-stop for an hour waiting on a bus that was never going to come..LOL

After talking with my mother today I just had a quick thought of what I think about my situation with love.

Am I afraid to love? I only know the answer to that question
But could I blame myself if I was
I’ve seen everyone go through life’s lesson
Of a broken heart, a lost love, something they never thought would happen
I have silly thoughts in my head of a perfect romance
But I can’t help but stop and stare at the pain and despair of love
I’ve seen it all from never loving again, choosing the wrong love, losing love, falling out of love
What is that to look forward to?
Yes everyone says you learn from your mistakes in love and no one’s perfect
But sometimes I’d rather not give love a try in the sense that my heart will never be broken
Afraid to love or not I don’t think I am it’s just I’m afraid to love too much
I can’t put my heart on the line and let it be torn to pieces
I guess that’s why I haven’t found the right one, well at one time I thought I did
But I wasn’t his right one
Love is a strong, beautiful, and powerful thing
I love, love

if that’s something you could say
I’m a loving person but there are things that hold me back and I think others’ that want to love me see that
I want to be loved and I can there is nothing stopping me
But I don’t want to be hurt and I know I can’t go in thinking negatively but from what I’ve seen who could blame me
LOVE,LOVE,LOVE
I’ve wanted love, my own love...For some time and I WAIT and WAIT and WAIT
But it has never came. I guess that’s why I tend to get attached to mere specs of love or little relationships that don’t last a mere second!!!
And then I just tell myself OVER and OVER and OVER
That if it’s in God’s will it’s his Way, so I wait for GOD to place the right one in my life!!
So I stay content with school and work and just having fun, because if I think about Love and not having someone who is my other half or that completes me..... by my side
I tend to feel lonely.

Your family and friends can only feel a little space of this emptiness
I mean GOD feels it all, but I liked to think he’s placed little openings there for me to add in family and friends, and life’s experiences.
But I guess when he see’s I’m ready...... He’ll add a space for me to have a companion to LOVE.....
Well until Later, Ich Liebe Dich!!

Why Am I Awake???

So, it's 4:42 a.m. and I'm awake!!! LOL But anywho I'm up and bored and I decided to blog. This is all my girls Britt and Krys talk about it, so I decided to give it a try. I'm thinking I might like this..lol So, anyways let's talk about my day....

"I woke up this mornin' with smile on my face..." Well I did..why I don't know it just seemed like it was going to be a really nice day. And it was I got up early, washed clothes, ate breakfast, took a nap. Let me take a minute to explain my nap; it's an abnormal sleep I have longer than a natural nap..lol in other words well needed sleep!! Okay back to my day, so me and my girl Krys decided to go to this music of faith event, but on our journey there our night just got better and better.

Funny events took place including us both breaking the handle of the same cab twice... CAN YOU SAY HILARIOUS!!!!

The event turned out to be good or so I thought...Can't wait until the next one.

So, we get back to our dorm and it's like all this fog outside..Creepy right. Not really..just irritating I couldn't even see.

But besides that I had a very good day/night. Now in the wee-hours of the morning I am still awake. Why I do not know!!!

I'm up watching television which I normally don't do... I have watched House, Biker Boys, Apocalypto, Commercials (lol)...and so on.

I'm awake for no apparent reason and I'm hungry!!! LOL

"You got some milk. we soo hungry"!!! LOL

I'm too silly!!! I need SLEEP!!!

Well until next time,

This is Ty...